Friday, June 29, 2012

memory lane and lemon squares

It's such an interesting mix of emotions when we go home.  It's the tug of remembering...the pull of the past.  We always ALWAYS walk down memory lane.  I'm a sap.  What can I say.  I breathe deep gulping in the air, running my hands along the familar banister of home...noticing even the insignificant gravel under my feet.  I take in every little thing trying to imprint it in my memory forever.  I think that's why I take so many pictures.  I want to keep them forever.

There is always an undertone of sadness that comes.  I remember things younger...fresher.  Even neighbors and friends out and about, when I run into them all I can think is how they've changed.

I see it in my parents and how they've slowed. It mellows me. Makes me a little scared. I know it's life and that's how it's supposed to be, but I don't want to think about that rushing freight train of time. I want to think it will always be like this.

That I'll always have my sweet ones folks to call on.  My girls hands in mine.  I know I'm in my prime.  These years right now are probably my finest.  It's true.  I don't want to waste a second.  I don't want to blink or it will be gone.

I was little yesterday.  I was the one running in the yard, playing in the barn.  I was giggling with my friends.  Not a care.  I had my mom and dad to rely on for everything.

Oh to preserve and truly appreciate our loved ones and not take any of them for granted.  To fully live in the moment and not stress about the unknowns.  That would be the ultimate prize right?  I have to remind myself I only have grace for today.  There's no need to worry and ponder the future, but still I have that nagging sadness.  

I'm just not ready for change...for letting go...ever.


As promised my mom's melt in your mouth
lemon square recipe:

Step #1 Crust: 
1 cup flour
1 stick butter
1/4 cup confection sugar
(Mix together and use cookie sheet to press out firmly.  Bake at 350 degrees for 20 minutes)

Step #2 Filling: 
2 eggs
1 cup sugar
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
2 tablespoons lemon juice
(Mix together and pour over baked crust and bake for 20 min.  Check at the end to make sure the edges don't burn.)  ENJOY!  This is my favorite thing my momma makes.  You will LOVE it!!!

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Have a blessed day.

640.  FINALLY finding a hair lady
641.  sleepovers for the girls
642.  my little chick reconnecting with a mn friend today
643.  lemon recipes

644.  sleeping in every morning

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  1. BEAUTIFUL photos and sweet memories!

  2. Loved all your wonderful photos!! Can't to try the lemon squares!!

  3. i hear what your saying 100%.
    it's so weird to watch things and people change around you when you feel the same as ever...but i've changed, too, and my kids are growing at warp speeds.
    i know God has it all under control, but i still get scared sometimes thinking of how fast this life is going.
    my true struggle is to embrace now and live in the moment.
    need to work on that.

  4. and LEMON BARS are my fave! :)
    gonna have to make these...we all love em! :)

  5. Lemon Bars are my all time favorite! So happy you were able to go home and visit. I am alwys amazed at the range of emotions that brings.

  6. First of all, those lemon bars look amazing! Considering that I'm salivating over them I guess I'll be making them soon :-) also I have similar thoughts and emotions when I go home… Somehow it seems like everything should stay the same, in some sort of time warp even though I have changed so much!

  7. First of all, those lemon bars look amazing! Considering that I'm salivating over them I guess I'll be making them soon :-) also I have similar thoughts and emotions when I go home… Somehow it seems like everything should stay the same, in some sort of time warp even though I have changed so much!

  8. I can so relate to this, Becky. Going home does that to me, too. Becoming a mama has made me even more nostalgic and grateful (and I was pretty sentimental/sappy before). :) Just posted a sap story about timing slowing down for me, too.
    I always considered it a gift for being so emotionally aware of the season we are in and the blessings we have. I hope you feel the same way, too. Your heart is beautiful!

    Have a wonderful weekend with your loved ones! :)

  9. Your photos, as always, are just beautiful. I love old houses, especially those that have been abandoned --- their stories still speak to me.

    I'm compelled to comment on your thought that these are your best years, when your kids are young. I understand it, but there's so much ahead. Every day is a gift, every day is the peak of my life, and I wouldn't go back in time for anything!!! My husband and I live a rich, full,extremely active life. We are 67 and bought a 55 acre farm last year. We are committed to a lifetime of work - we don't plan on being too old, EVER. Our son is married to a wonderful woman, and they have a delightfully precious son who's 9 months old. I've learned to live on present blessings, not the past. Memory can be bittersweet, and it has its place. The present can only be lived fully if I allow it to be. May you have such a blessed and abundant day that you just can't contain it all! 8-)

    1. Love this Mary. You go girl with your farm and living fully. That is AWESOME. I believe the future is going to be sweet too for us. Just different. Gotta embrace change.

  10. beatuiful post through and through. love all those abandoned buildings and the unique photos all through out. MEMORIES!! are so like this (which is what I think you were trying to stay). At times we abandon them and we forget about things and when we go back "inside" them - they've changed, the memories aren't as vivid anymore or they are...and they're life!...just like we want to remember. The old becomes new and beautiful once more. And we try to capture exactly as it were. Change!

    Love it!

    I appreciate Mary Ann Potter's wisdom here, too! ;)

  11. Oh my! I think these are some of the most beautiful photos I've ever seen on a blog! I mean, of course I love a good baby pic, but THESE photos? I think EVERYONE can relate to them in one way or another. And your story telling is moving!

    When I turned 40 I remember a HUGE shift in my thinking and re-evaluating what was truly important in my life. I'm typically a pretty positive person (considering....);[], so I don't mean this in a morbid way, but I started thinking about death, or things coming to an end. I wonder if this is typical for most 40 somethings? But I have to say thank you to Mary Ann....her comment brought such comfort :)

  12. Lemon bars are my brother's favorite.I cant wait to send him some of these!

  13. Thank you for the beautiful post girlie :) I have to admit that I got teary eyed when I read it....I think its this mid-life or almost 40 thing that just makes all the important things more clear and present. And that is a wonderful, scary feeling. I want time to stand still, to be present and capture it all. And yet, is that fair? I also want to be present for my children and their future and that makes me happy and sad at the same time....why did you have to post this when I am so hormonal?! :) Ok, I am off to jot down the recipe, and thanking my heavens that it was not chocolate at this time of month!! Hugs XOX

  14. I look forward to reading your posts. They always capture the emotions you're feeling. Beautiful pictures! Thanks for hosting too!

  15. As always your pictures are full of a million words and thoughts and emotions!
    I love it.
    You are beautiful inside and out.

  16. Love what you wrote here! And your photos are gorgeous - your best in a my little ol opinion. :) Love the feel of this whole post! ♥

    Goning to have to try those lemon bars - I love lemony desserts! :D

    Fav pic = the one of you laughing/smiling in the tall grass!

  17. Oh, Becky, I'm a memory lane person too.

    Loved this post.

  18. i am much the same. and since i'll be home in a few days, i'm preparing myself for the sap now. : )

  19. I have always loved old barns. I love to think of the story they hold. Your photos and the accompanying thoughts are so beautiful. I'm having many of the same thoughts. It's tough to see your parents age. It's fun to see your kids age. And while those around me age, I don't feel old at all. I still feel like a school kid. But the pains in my body tell me otherwise.

    It's cool that you have a place that you can go to that is such a part of the fabric of you. We moved so much while I was growing up that I have too many memory lanes, each of which hold too few memories. Never-the-less, I drive my kids past my grandpa's house, the pink siding now painted green, every chance I get.

    Can't wait to try the recipe.

  20. don't talk about memory lane...can't handle it :-/ boo. but i'm pretty sure lemon bars will help with that! :)

  21. Memory lane is such a great place to go ~ brings back many smiles and some tears too. I love your pictures from home and your words too Becky. I looked on line for a conversion for 1 stick of butter ~ does 1/2 cup sound right? Happy week-end girlie. xo

  22. Becky, you have me crying...good crying though. Mary Ann has the right idea. I'm going to be 51 in a few days and I'm planning on enjoying every minute the good Lord blesses me with. Loved this post. You are such a sentimental girl and I totally feel what you put into words. It was beautiful. Enjoy your weekend :)

  23. I have been having similar thoughts this week and decided I was just longing for heaven ... eternity.

  24. oooh, i love all of your pictures so much. i think you just put into words what so many of us feel...i am getting older, my parents are getting older...i can seriously freak myself out bad if i think on it too much. oh and i love Mary Ann's comment and her perspective, beautifully said!!

  25. Was that the abandoned farm you explored? Looks beautiful! And those bars look delish. Think I will make them tomorrow :)

    1. Yep. My dad bailed hay for the guy who owned it years before when the house was beautiful and the land was maintained.

  26. Awesome post - I can totally relate after driving my parents from Florida to CT this past week - how lucky and blessed we are. Have a great week - I'm bummed my timing was off when passing through your town - would love to have met for coffee :( Maybe next time. xo

  27. what a beautiful post becky. goose bumps. i love all your photos. they scream memories. so sweet.

  28. Loved this post! I knew it was going to be good and loaded with great pictures so I saved it for just the right time. Here I am sitting on my back patio, with my Mom and an iced coffee, it's a beautiful, quiet Saturday and the sun has just come back after a rainy afternoon.

    It's days like this that I don't want to end. Let's enjoy them while they are ours to enjoy!

    Happy for you about your new hairdresser find!!! I finally gave up and have just been cutting my own hair. Since I din't color, it has actually worked well.

  29. we are so much alike...well, at least from this angle we are.
    I'm very sentimental and nostalgic....always have been.
    I love capturing the beauty of my hometown and especially my parents' land with all the old barns and huge trees.

    Glad you had a great visit home....

  30. And, you are right, change is a part of life. Some changes are definitely easier than others but I can promise you that HE will always see you through them. Gorgeous pictures and a lovely post!

  31. beautifully written, becky! after losing my son and then my mother, it really is a knock on the heart and an extreme reality check to just how important life is and how we miss our loving family so much. i just want you to know that i wear my "faith" cuff several times a week and i think of my mom and son when i wear it.

    loved this post! enjoy each moment, as you do.


  32. Hey pretty girl! I could sit here and read your posts over and over again, Becky. You have such a beautiful way of putting sentences and thoughts together. They always create memories for I was there with you. You should write a book, my friend. :)


  33. Oh, I so super-get this. Every word of it. Your photos are gorgeous, and so is your heart.

  34. One of the best blog posts I've ever read. Seriously. It's like you were in my head....time is like a freight train. Could not have said it better myself. Thank you for sharing your heart. It was such a blessing to read! xo

  35. Love the pretty!

    sandy toe

  36. So touched by
    your words today,
    girlie. I think we
    can't dwell too much
    on what is changing
    or we might go a bit
    bonkers. EMBRACE
    is my secret word
    these in
    open my arms to
    what will unfold.

    xo Suzanne

    PS: These lemon bars!
    Oh my!

  37. I'm with's hard to not look ahead, but it can zap the grace and joy out of today. I have such great memories...and that always makes it harder!:)

  38. I know just what you mean. Just exactly.

  39. i missed a couple while gone... starting to get caught up again... these photos are AMAZING girl!! You look so cute in braids and I keep thinking these thoughts all the time. I thought about it alot this week... don't know why, but yeah, I get it. Love you so. CAn't wait to get caught up.

  40. Lovely & melancholy post. I was thinking about making lemon bars today before I read it. What size pan do you use?

  41. Your photos are gorgeous, especially that barn shot. Love the barn too.

    So glad you and your chicks were able to spend this special time with your parents. Nothing like making more special family memories to cherish always and always!!! Isn't it something how places and things you remember when growing up have changed when you go back? It's so important to pass down our love for family and reuniting whenever possible, like you are doing Becky, and teaching your girls that importance too. Family grounds us!!!

    Glad you are back home!

    ♥Lee Ann

  42. Ack! I missed your food linky again!!! Next time. :( Your Mom's lemon Squares look delicious.

    I loved looking at all of your photos of you and the girls and the old home. Wh owned the house becky? It was sad to see it growing old and broken. Kind of reminds me of myself. Ha-ha.....well kind of. Hang onto your wonderful todays Becky.I love reading your thoughts.

    Oha and your play list had one of my very favorite songs playing, David Gray's This Year Love.



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