Wednesday, June 22, 2011

and so it begins...


The hard part of moving obviously are the goodbyes.  I am emotional to a fault.  Let's just say I live and love very deeply.  Goodbyes about do me in.  It's the part from the beginning of this process that made me not want to move forward. 

Today I had to say goodbye to these sweet women.  Women for the most part that I haven't known for very long.  I kind of shimmied my way into their neighborhood bible study, and they of course welcomed me with open arms.  It's been such a blessing to study the word with them.  There is a richness that comes from friendships when the Lord is the common thread.

I'm praying so hard that the Lord leads me to another bible study with women I can connect with.  It's like air to me.  I need it so desperately.  One because I'm lazy when it comes to studying the word on my own, and two because friends are vital to my well being.  I know He knows this.  I'm sure He's got it covered, but if you could pray that specifically for me I'd so appreciate it!

I'm feeling kinda down on my physical self lately. I've gained 10 pounds since last year. 10 POUNDS!! And I can tell.  My clothes are a little snug. My face and arms look pudgy.  I'm a stress eater, and there's been just a little bit of stress going on lately. Funny thing is my honey is losing weight. Well actually it's not funny it's annoying the he$@ out of me. He's looking lean and fit and I'm going all soft.  I know I shouldn't wait for another day to start cleaning it up, but I feel like I can't properly focus on myself when everything is in complete chaos around me. Hopefully once we get moved in and settled I can put it in high gear. Anyone with me??

This picture completely cracks me up.  Let's just say I don't do candid well.  I look like I'm saying DUH or DER!  That face is in reaction to the gift my bible study girls got me.  It was the sweetest necklace.  It's a glassed in mustard seed with the scripture Matthew 17:20 engraved on the back.  It says: If ye have faith as a grain of a mustard seed ...nothing shall be impossible unto you.  They also prayed over our family and the move.  Goodness I was snotty mess when that prayer was over.   So grateful for them and that new reminder that I'm wearing around my neck.  It only takes a tiny of speck of faith to believe that great things will happen.  Surely I have at least that much faith right?? 

Have a blessed day.

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  1. I feel sad that you are sad about your body. Really sad. I know that God loves you no matter what. And so does your husband.

  2. The look on your face is priceless, you should really try to do that more often, but not around your new town just yet, give them a chance to get used to you first. The weight, yup, I'm with you on that. And I'm sure you will "connect" with new ladies, but I'll pray for you, knowing all will be just fine.

  3. A few things:

    1. What a blessing to have those gals. I'm certainly praying He will bring you a new group to grow with. I know He will!!!

    2. You look thin. I know you believe the scale more than me, but really, you look fantastic. Don't lose heart. You will lose the weight when you get into your new routine.

    3. Keep the faith, and when you're weary, know that others are standing in the gap praying over you.

  4. I think the necklace idea is about the most precious thing, ever. Praying God grants you your hearts desire, and that you'll quickly find a groove in your new state, with women who are equally loving and supportive.

    I think you look amazing, girl. Even though I know fifty nine people in a row tell you that, but you don't feel it, it doesn't matter. That's how we women are...BUT, I think once things smooth out, you'll get back into the shape you want to be in.

  5. You look about 12 years old in that pic. Bonus!! I'm sure you'll find a study. You're moving to the Bible Belt for Pete's sake. Don't pack the kleenex first and good luck in the move. :)

  6. I'll be thinking of you and praying for this transition time.

    I know - Goodbyes are really hard. That was a great gift and great verse.

    And, I agree you look fab. NOTE: I did not say flab. :) You always look great.

  7. I am with you...I can't stand good-byes, they do me in. I am not good with it. I try to be a happy person and good-byes are just not happy for me. I am praying for you and your whole family. And I know you will find what you need in your new home...and it will be great.

  8. I'll be praying that you find a new group. I'm the same way about friends and studying the Bible. Don't be too hard on yourself about the weight. It'll slide right back off once your moved in and decorating the new home.

  9. You are SO BLESSED to have such awesome friends. I just know God will lead other women to you to get to know. :o)

  10. How wonderful to have been given these precious friends from our Lord!
    How precious!
    What memories you have to hold close in your heart Becky...a part of your journey.
    Friends are friends forever if the Lords' the Lord of them....remember that beautiful truth and song.xo
    That mustard seed, what a beautiful reminder of your faith.
    And about the weight, I completely understand hunny...I know that you know who you are in Him ,and have no doubts of His love for you, but Im with you....we just like to be at a comfortable weight...and Im on that same journey.
    We can do it together!
    Love you sweet, sweet friend xoxoxoxo
    Remembering you in prayer.

    Deborah xoxoxoxooxxo

  11. oh girl, i used to work out with a personal trainer (my sil paid for it--but it eventually ended) and since then, i have done nothing!! i taught 12 weeks of aerobics to girls at our homeschool coop, and recently have been playing 2 hours of pickleball on sundays, but it's so hard to get on the treadmill, pop in a video whatever. my husband is the same as yours; he's been lifting weights, and he's got some big guns now!! (it is nice ;-) ) maybe when you move you'll find some really nice gal next door who walks every morning and she's so awesome! i'll pray for that!!

  12. aw. you are blessed...and beautiful.
    xo, Cheryl

  13. I have to get me some blog buddies! These women seem so awesome :) We'll miss you so much Becky!! You look great to me, but when you kick it into high gear let us know and I'll follow your lead! I love how someone said don't pack the kleenex first and I double-love that you put your goofy picture on here! Love and Prayers!

  14. What a sweet gift and an awesome group of women you have been able to bond with. I am confident that you will find another good group in your new Home as well.

    When it comes to faith, I am learning to be more like a childlike. Just believe with minimal questions and trust that God loves you, He is in control and He will take care of you, ALWAYS.

  15. i'm sure it's incredibly difficult to say goodbye. or until we meet again... What a sweet necklace! that's special! and you always look great. always. don't worry about a thing chicken wing!

  16. Starting over is hard we have a few months before we leave and I stay on anxious ya know what I mean? Anyway Im happy you have a support system and God is already laying out a path for you and your family so the prayer group you need will be there waiting.Be Blessed.

  17. oh sweet look beautiful as always. i know what you mean about your clothes feeling snug. that's how i feel too. you might not look it, but you just don't feel good about yourself. that's where i'm at! you look like a million bucks and i'm so so excited to see what God has for you when you move!! love you! xo, alicia

  18. Hey Becky,

    I'm sure you know about BSF and CBS, right? They're a great starting off point for getting connected. Also, since there are so many Baptists in Richmond (home of the Int'l Mission Board), they probably hold Beth Moore Bible studies on the half hour up there.....

    Give yourself a break about the weight. I already decided that nothing was going to happen here with regards to that until school starts. It takes such focus!

  19. Becky, you are beautiful inside and out!

  20. Oh goodbyes are so hard! I always cry when I have to say them...really feel for ya, Becky:) But, you do have so much faith; it'll get you through without a doubt!

  21. oh becky, i can just sense your tender heart right through this computer screen. what wonderful sweet friends...i'm certain the lord has gone before you and already laid on some women's hearts that you will join their network. i love the mustard seed. yes...that's all you need, the faith of a mustard seed.
    now to Him that can do exceedingly more than we can ever imagine....
    blessings my friend

  22. First of all, that sounds like my kind of necklace. Second of all, you look GREAT and though I know that you can tell how you have changed, and would defy anyone who says you haven't because as women, we know what we know...I'm just still going to say that you are funny to think that you have pudgy arms and face or whatever you just said about yourself. Puhleeze. Girl, you are adorable. And three, at the same time, I totally understand the being out of control/stress of the moment, and putting yourself last with the eating clean etc. It's just ONE. MORE. THING, and when you're plate's full of stuff that's stressful, it just gets shoved in the back corner for some reason. I do get that. Been there a whole dang year, which is why I'm about to go do my P90X. Ech. Hate it. Love it. Hate it.

    But I LOVE YOU! Hang in there girl. Hang on to that mustard seed. Wish I had a little bit of that mustard seed kind of faith... man. Life.

  23. Oh Sweet Pea, don't be so hard on yourself you look darling and far from pudgy! I will keep you in my prayers for sure and best wishes and blessings for a safe landing wherever you are going~Cheers Kim xox

  24. Sweet Becky,

    Oh honey, good-byes, hate em'. You know that don't you. I had such a heavy heart at our lunch at Suzanne's. I love your "see ya later" attitude! Good-bye's are really the most DIFFICULT thing about moving. Take care of you and your family, that is all that matter. You look Fab-u-lous BTW.
    I owe ya a phone call - I need a cuff fix!

  25. Oh sweetie, wish I could reach through the blogworld and give you a big ol' hug. You're going to be fine. I know it. One day at a time keeping your eyes on your heavenly father. Got you covered in my prayers for another great group of ladies.

  26. I have that same necklace...I love it. I hear ya on the stress eating. I started WW the day we got home with Ollie. I lost 3 lbs the first for 20 more! Yikes.

  27. I hope everything turns out okay for you and your family! I'm sure you will settle down in no time & find new friends : )

    Don't worry about your weight too much for now, I would be the same in your situation.

    Gemma xXx

  28. Goodbyes suck and that's the truth. What a wonderful thoughtful gift Becky ~ I have a similar necklace but it is a grain of rice. I know that He will take care of you in your new journey and you will find another group of great women like this one. xo

  29. Sweet sweet sweet. It is what it is all about!

  30. i can hear the sadness in your words.....praying for you in this's hard to remember that transitions are rarely easy for people like us....the feelers in the world. :)

    i'm like deeply with all that i am...makes goodbyes unbearable.

    God will surely and faithfully give you every single thing you need in this'll be given the friends that you need and that need you. i just know it.

    about the ten pounds....i feel your pain. it's easy for me to say that you look fabulous, but doesn't it suck when everyone around us says it and we ourselves just don't believe it?

    my husband can eat chips and cookies for bfast and lose weight, so, girl, i know that frustration!!! you'll get back into the groove once you get moved and settled.

  31. oh becky your heart is so full of love! you are just the sweetest. Transition, change is so hard.... hang in their your faith is a rock and will carry your through and extra prayers from all of us will get you to the finish line!!!!

  32. so hard to leave the good ones behind, isn't it?:( I am confident that you will find your place in VA... we prayed before we left that we'd have GOOD friends, real friends and I've watched God surprise me with that right in my own back yard. He knows your heart and he'll fill it right up! :) Praying for you during the "goodbye season."

  33. I'm with ya'. All 24lbs of remaining baby weight & me totally with ya'!

  34. You are such a beautiful woman. Please don't be hard on yourself! Funny, I can't really focus on myself either when my world feels a bit wobbly. Thank you for giving me the words that I could never quite find.

    You are so blessed with your friends and I know you will be so again in your new home.

  35. Dear girl, you better believe I will be praying you in some girlfriends who you can Bible study and bond with. I truly cannot imagine how hard this must be to leave those dear friends you've made. Becky, truly you are a very special gal. I have no doubt that God is going to answer that prayer with new added girlfriends. Can you believe I am tearing up as I write this to you?

    Love and Hugs,
    Lee Ann

  36. Will definitely keep you in my prayers. A good group of women to study the Bible with is a precious gift. And what beautiful ladies too. God will, of course, supply all your needs. :)

  37. what a beautiful,beautiful,beautiful post!
    so heartfelt and so lovely!
    Don't you worry,The Lord have you in mind and all will be just great!
    These amazing friends that you are leaving behind will always be with you,even if only inside your heart.
    ...and you look just great as you are...toss the mirror,it's lying to you! hahaha

  38. Moving is hard, I know, hang in there:O) Sending prayers and hugs:O)

  39. It is so good to be browsing some blogs this morning while sitting at the hospital with my Dad. I just know that this is going to be a good move and that the Lord already has friends lined out for you and your family and I know they will welcome you with loving arms. Adjustments are always tough but often are good as well. My prayers are with you in the days ahead. Blessings my friend!

  40. you know I will..becky - it is so not fair that men can do that and women do the opposite...ugh! BUT you will get a handle on it. I was just reading last night about the know the ones? it said something like don't focus on them focus on Him. Everytime thoughts come..and they come often at times like this..throw them away and say truth to yourself. You ARE are beautiful worthy woman who is enough to live each day. Do what you can..a little here and there..cry out to Him all day long..praise Him with songs...find a couple of chorus's and sing those throughout the day when you know the waves are big...He has you safe and tight. You are loved by all of these women and He will give you what you need..ok I'll stop:) love ya! breathe this weekend and find joy in every little thing you can!

  41. I just came across
    those photos I took
    of you at our photog
    class, last night.
    It brought a smile
    and a tear all at
    once. I don't think
    you can take a bad
    picture. And, I'm
    SO gonna miss you!!
    xx Suzanne

  42. Goodbyes do suck! :P I too have a glassed mustard seed - it's soo small and that amount of faith can make the impossible possible? Why haven't I made mountains move yet??! :S
    It IS a good reminder of how great our God truly is! That even without faith as tiny as a mustard seed He is right there with us, each and every step of every day! :)

  43. I'm so with you...hate goodbyes. I'm so bad at it. But I am treasuring your honesty, your conversations with the Lord, and your prayer needs. Thank you so much for sharing.


  44. good women friends are the best! and i know great things will happen...

  45. I have pictures where I look just like that! You look gorgeous, as always. Time for you to move on, where you can light of the lives of a new group of people.

  46. What a blessing your friends are...they will continue to be and you will be blessed with new ones, I am certain. What a lovely and caring gift! Continued blessings to you and your family, Becky.


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